***Warning this post contains lots of PDA’S which is very out of character for me!!!
So I’ve moved!!!!! I’m in our new house and I love love love it!!!! It’s crazy how life has so many twists and turns isn’t it!! My bf and I met up for our first date just over ten months ago and we haven’t been apart since. I’ve always been an over thinker and I’ve always said to my friends, how do you know if you’re with the one?!? Their reply, you just know Nikki. They were so right!!!!! I was so sure by the time I was 30 I’d be married, possibly children although I’ve never had much patience for kids lol. But things changed and I’m sooooooo glad that wasn’t the case now. I wouldn’t of been here, exactly where I’m meant to be.
When you meet the one and you know they’re the one you feel immediately feel comfortable from don’t you, you laugh till you cry, you respect each other, you do selfless things for them, you get excited every time you see them, you don’t care who knows how you feel, they become your best friend and you can’t imagine ever being apart from them, you can look at them on a night out and think “that’s my man!” and feel proud, you want them to feel amazing, so you treat them amazing, my bf words! Oh and most importantly for me, I don’t care if he sees me without my make up lol!!
Anyway enough mushy stuff ha ha. New chapters happen all the time, every single day is a new opportunity to re invent yourself. If you aren’t happy, you can change it. For example If you don’t feel you’ve done well sw wise one day, it honestly doesn’t matter, just draw a line and move on. Wake up the next day and make it an amazing one.
For me it’s about making this a lifestyle change. I’ve been in unhappy relationships and I’ve been in happy relationships at that time. You learn from them all and thats the whole point. If you have a bad day you can learn from it. Mistakes are just opportunities to do it right the next time, when it really counts.
I was moving things from 9am after we picked the keys up until about 10pm at night and still have tons to do. I didn’t give in to temptation thing of grabbing a sandwich or a take away. I popped to the shop at 3pm and got bowls of salad, packets of ham, cherry tomatoes, sliced peppers and balsamic finger and made a quick salad on the go. The old me would’ve used moving as an excuse for a take away or huge foot long subway!! We’ve already sorted the lounge and the kitchen and I love them both!!! Bedrooms are next! This could take a while, I’ve got approx five suitcases rammed with clothes and another 8 bin bags full, with everything still on their hangers. My bf has even more stuff!!! I said on my fb status that even if I lived to 100 and wore something different every day I couldn’t wear them all!! I’ve already had two huge clear outs but I think I need to be more ruthless!!!
One of the reasons I’m such a shopperholic is that when I was bigger I hated shopping!! I’d look at my reflection in the changing room mirrors and want to cry. I’d get ready for nights out and just end up wearing something that was baggy and covered my huge bum and love handles!! Nothing could cover up how I felt inside though! When I got in my first pair of size 10 skinny jeans I literally danced around the shop!! They must of thought I was mental, but I didn’t care!!! I’ve been a size 16 and I’ve been a size 8, I tend to be a size 10 as an average. Trust me when I say this. No food or drink has ever ever tasted as good as I felt in those jeans!! Don’t get me wrong, I adore the taste of cakes, chocolate, pizza, wine, beer, in fact there really isn’t anything I don’t like!!!! But those sort of treats or pleasures, as I used to see them, last two seconds! The feeling of liking yourself lasts so much longer!!!!
I wouldn’t be sat here now if I didn’t change my lifestyle. I wouldn’t of had the confidence to be single, after being in relationships most of my life, I certainly wouldn’t of gone on that date with my now bf!!! Losing weight can be totally life changing!!! It certainly changed mine, I got a new career I adore, a man I adore and a house I adore. Make the rest of your life the best of your life guys!!! You only get one life. Mwah
Happy Fopping xxxx